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I'm a beggar and I'm a chooser [24 Mar 2006|01:44pm]
the sister I always wanted is off doing things that are B A D.
well, she WAS, until she got busted, and now she is making the 3 hour drive to make the "Baby I'm SORRY!" pitch that I do not miss at all.
meanwhile, I haven't seen the sister I was born with in quite sometime, and the last time I saw her, she was crying. typical. and I love her VERY much.

I have been SICK SICK SICK for the past week or so. wednesday night/early thursday morning found me in the emergency room fighting to breathe. that's all since been resolved and with the aid of pain medication, i am back to being a champion in the art of breathing.
so I have just been laying around for a week. tuesday I got the chance to redevelop my intense connection with ellen degeneres. Seriously. Why is she so cute cute cute!? then there was Montel, Maury, Maury, Tyra, Dr. Phil, Oprah, then the Simpsons and so on. Then there were all those commercials offering me my GED and then my MASTERS from the same Nationally Accredited institition of B.S. Well, that and how lame college is and how i should just become a medical insurance biller/coder.
When all this wasn't going on I was watching movies. LOTS of movies.
OH, and coughing; Coughing ALOT.

i went to get some gummy bears and chocolate milk the other day and this black guy at Diamond shamrock started griping at me because my wallet is Armani. i was worried because i was by myself and i was wondering how he knew it was armani because the a/x thing is really small and embossed. then he said something about my sunglasses and they don't even have any logo on them but he still knew what they were. anyway, he was going on about "people like you make me sick." yada yada yada son of a bitch drove an Escalade. I was like, "Yeah, that Oldsmobile out there really makes a statement, I'm such a stuck up rich little white bitch right?" Then I went to my car and drove around a little bit before I went home just in case he wanted to follow me because I should just shut my mouth sometimes. Also, I did not tell cory about this, so you don't either.

Also, I have further proof that I am emitting some serious pheromones because another stranger just walked up to me last night to tell me that I am beautiful.
Not bad for having spent the last 6-7 days dying!
SO, either I really am just that gorgeous, or this is all some elaborate prank to build my self-esteem. Either way - I don't see how being complemented on a daily basis is a bad thing, especially when it is by random people who don't really have to worry about your feelings.

Dear James Kinsey (if you are reading this),
I did not blow you off or forget about you. I WILL call you.
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This way she moves in the logic of all my dreams [17 Mar 2006|02:02pm]
I have been looking for orange earrings EVERYWHERE. Literally. Everywhere I go I look to see if they have orange earrings, and you know they just never do. SO, I finally decided to take the matter into my own hands and I am now the proud owner of the cutest little orange earrings you've ever seen! They even have little green leaves on them. It's awesome because I know that no one else anywhere has these earrings, they are my own design and creation. It's terribly exciting.

Happy St. Patrick's Day
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dead at 25 [09 Mar 2006|10:21am]
Rachel: We spend like $1500 a month on nothing. It’s like we are dumping it into a hole or something. We have nothing to show for it.
Mayra: you look good.
R: yeah.
M: I would fuck you
R: Thanks


Mayra: I don’t care if I get raped and murdered. At least I won’t have to work here anymore.
Rachel: Yeah. But you’d be dead.
M: At least I’m pretty, I have my Land Rover, I know I am about to graduate. If I die right now at least I didn’t have to go though getting fat and old and being worried about it. I have accomplished what I wanted in life.
R: Okay.
M: Right? And then while they are killing me I will be screaming “I made it in life”
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[02 Mar 2006|05:09pm]
I wore the wrong shoes today.
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[02 Mar 2006|08:06am]
can you see my problem
if I never explain it?
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[14 Feb 2006|02:29pm]
people can say what they want about this being an over commercialized pseudo-holiday. so it is, so what? i think people should do sweet things for their significant others every day, but i certainly do not see what could be wrong with a day that makes everyone a little bit nicer.

Cory and I celebrated on saturday night. I slaved all day while he was at school making individually heart shaped German Chocolate cupcakes.
I even went to the craft store and bought a tray (like the ones store bought cakes come on) and put them on there. they were beautiful.


we need a new coffee pot ASAP! breakfast at 5:30am just isn't the same when you haven't had coffee yet.
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you have a pressure in you to destroy the one who loved you [07 Feb 2006|04:03pm]
this year is only going totally awesome.
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[02 Feb 2006|09:39am]
[ mood | confused ]

the first thing i said when i woke up this morning?
i love you too.

this morning i made breakfast and both our lunches, then he left and i did the dishes and made the bed.

this has been happening every morning for the last couple of weeks and i really like it.

i have NO idea what i REALLY want to do with my life and it is a little late in the game to change my mind.
i am starting to panic.

i am just glad that the other part of my life is organized, i don't know how i would handle this if it weren't.

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[25 Jan 2006|02:09pm]
the mister just got a job at a hospital in clear lake which (i think) is closer than where he is working now, although i am not sure. they wanted him to start immediately so tomorrow it is.

i will be getting up early tomorrow to take little rambo to be neutered.

i need a break from reality, i have been feeling very sick lately and i think i just need to slow down and stop worrying for a bit.

everything will find its place
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set the fuse to go go go [16 Jan 2006|02:29pm]
[ mood | confused? ]

since 2006 i:

can eat a grapefruit with no sugar
drink 8-10 hot green teas a day
hardly ever drink coffee
have officially not smoked in a year
am addicted to ferrero rocher candies
drink like a fish
cook dinner every night
i love love love it


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i'd marry you anyway; i'd have your baby. [09 Jan 2006|11:39am]
[ mood | artistic ]

i honestly don't feel like i can wait until January 20th to see MatchPoint. I am SO close to taking a day off and planning a road trip to dallas it isn't even funny. I don't see why they get it so early.

cory started classes saturday and for the first time in over a year i was forced to figure out what to do in his absence.

i've already planned out several saturdays to come.

his classes are most saturdays from 7am to 8pm so there is alot of time to fill.

we finally took down the christmas tree and raked the front and back yard.
the holidays are officially over for me and we are back to reality.

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"Life is nothing if you're not obsessed" [06 Jan 2006|02:43pm]
[ mood | completely enamored ]

mister shaved the beard off last night, his class is tomorrow morning.
it's like kissing an entirely different boy. We'll just have to practice extra hard tonight so i can get used to it.

we are going to see Munich and Hostel tonight so we are having hot dogs and nachos and pretzels and popcorn and huge cokes for dinner.


i fall more and more in love with him every day.

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i won't let my moods ruin this you'll see. [03 Jan 2006|04:11pm]
2005 was the best and worst year of my life. i am glad it's over and i look forward to spending another amazing year with my love.

hello 2006
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[21 Dec 2005|11:17am]
tis the season to keep finding random gifts on my desk from coworkers for which i bought nothing, and will buy nothing.

i've gotten cookies, candies, candles, perfume, crabtree and evelyn.
today is the TK Firm Luncheon at the doubletree, it's nice because they have an open bar.

last night the mister and i made penguins, it was so much fun and he is so much fun and i have so much fun with him and he rules and so do the penguins.:
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so far, my holiday season has been awesome, and i am really looking forward to this christmas.

really, all i want for christmas is this guy:
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[20 Dec 2005|04:29pm]
[ mood | creative ]

My darling love got the apprenticeship, hands down, and I am SO proud of him! Apparently, the committee thinks he’s as awesome as I do, and they should (because he is)

Last night I came home early and did laundry and cleaned the house A LOT. Then I made dinner and my family came over to see our tremendously beautifully darling Christmas tree. The hedgie is not doing that well. At least not in front of us. He doesn’t really move around at all, but this morning there was food in his water bowl so maybe he is just pouting over the move.

The little fucko that egged our house came over yesterday evening and scrubbed it off and his old lady bitched him out the entire time. It was wonderful. I only hope his little shithead friends watched him out of their windows to heighten the humiliation later. It sucks to be the one that got caught.

Tonight I will attempt another new recipe and hopefully make some penguins too.

I need new glasses.
I NEED a haircut

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[14 Dec 2005|12:17pm]
this morning my boss called me into her office about my holiday bonus.
she said the bonuses are pretty formulaic(10% of your monthly x the number of years you worked here)
which ain't too bad considering the dingleberry bs bonuses i've received from past employers.
however, both she and my administrator feel that isn't enough and have decided to up my bonus by $300.
they just want me to know how much they appreciate me and all that i do.

so yeah. i just think that's awesome. AND she's letting me put yesterday's sick day on the next pay period so i can get all that $30/hour overtime i put in over the past couple of weeks.

i am sick, which sucks, but i am happy and i feel whole, save for the lungs i am coughing up.

mr got a haircut yesterday for his spiffy interview, alas tonight we will bid the beard farewell.

we put up our first christmas tree together last night. it is gorgeous and he is gorgeous and i am so glad our tree is our tree and he is mine.

i am also SO glad tonight is my last final
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whatever [29 Nov 2005|10:29am]
[ mood | sick ]

i NEED a new car, but still refuse to get one. carpooling is the best.

at least once a day someone asks me if i've gotten a haircut because my hair is just SO cute, but i haven't cut my hair in a few months, it just looks different everyday naturally.

all of my immediate co-workers have been telling me how tiny i am, and i can only conclude they are either blind or totally insane, or both, or neither. whatev

i showered at mayra's last night and mister picked me up bearing big pretty gerber daisies
i have the best mister ever.

my front door is red.

i feel like hell today.

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[23 Nov 2005|08:59am]
actually, i've decided i DON'T like cherry twizzlers, or candy bars. i'm switching to straight booze.

just call me cinnamon
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get down girl, go 'head get down [22 Nov 2005|11:37am]
i can survive solely on alcohol, fun sized candy bars, and starting yesterday, cherry twizzlers.

i work in a sky scraper.

we are moving in a week.

happy thanksgiving.
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platypus [11 Nov 2005|11:07am]
So here's the deal:


I am SO glad I found someone new.
someone who wants to be with me right here, right now, and not just in the event that he can't have me
who says lovey-dovey things without complaining of how cliche it is
who answers "How was your day?" with a positive response
who isn't DEPRESSED all the time no matter what
who doesn't bring everyone around him DOWN
who isn't too clingy and whiny
who never calls me bad names or perpetuates arguments
who is supportive and allows me to be myself
who can carry me around like a baby and not get tired
who makes me smile just by thinking about him.

i will never want anyone else.

but i'd hope, if something WAS to happen, after FOUR YEARS he would have moved on.

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